Only God Gets It Right The First Time Around.
– Stephen King
It often strikes me as odd how fear can control much of our actions in our day to day life. We fear to take risks because of how we might look to other people. We fear the unknown because of its nature, its vast possibilities and its unpredictable qualities. We fear failure and its perceived repercussions.
Very recently I was asked to write a script then voice it. I had done that dozens of times for the company I work for. But this request came from a sister company. They were willing to pay me to write them 2 scripts for a conference.
So why did I hesitate if I can do this with my eyes closed? Why the sudden self doubt? Is it because before I was secure in the confines of getting my salary even if my script wasn’t award winning? or is it just the idea that I will no longer be part of a team… but be representing myself?
Whatever the case was, my need to make some extra cash superseded my self doubt and the scripts were written and recorded and money was made.
Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.
– Winston Churchill
So just like that a new freelance outlet appeared and Taji stepped through the looking glass.
A few days later I remembered that an agency in the Middle East had contacted me and mentioned that they liked how I write. They mentioned that I should contact their script department because they often have need for copywriters in their business.
My fear clouded mind dismissed their compliments as niceties. They were just being nice, they wouldn’t hire me as a writer… who would.
But then when the sister company got it through my thick skull that I can do this professionally, and in truth I have been doing it professionally for years… only it was all for the benefit of one company. I reconsidered their offer.
I contacted their script writing department, got my first assignment, wrote several drafts.
And sold a script.
I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain
– Bene Gesserit – Litany against fear – Frank Herbert – Dune